Getting Healthy, Feeling Better, and Weighing Less

I’m such a procrastinator, but I am determined to do weight loss right this year. I’m going to make my goals manageable. livable.

First goal, no deadline…. 5lbs.

2nd Goal: exercise at least half hour three days a week.

House Goal:  house clean bedroom and en suite. Deadline 1 week.

Personal goal: Get picture developed, finish picture wall. Deadline 1 month.

18 day… 18 straight days of exercise. I have to say, I’m amazed at myself. I didnt’ think I could keep it going this long. Usually when the weight loss doesn’t equal the effort I put forth in one week. I bag it. So far I’m  still going strong. I had the perfect opportunity to give up tonight. I could have easily given in the my exhaustion and fall asleep early. The healthier me that is hiding, is starting fight more. She’s starting to win against this shell of a person I became. It’s hard fighting the person I’m hiding behind.

I do need to start to putting a better effort into the blog. But truthfully I have been just so tired and busy to take the time to journal my food and my feelings. I really just wanted to give it all to the exercise right now. Until the exercise is as much as part of my life and daily routine as taking a shower is. A must do daily. But for now I’ll keep myself grounded with little posts like these. Little pick me ups to remind myself to keep going and keep doing what I’m doing. But the scale is not my friend, Only .2 pounds down from last week. Whatevs.

I hit my first goal. Three pounds, or more accurately 3.2 pounds. I finally hit that first mini milestone and I feel a little proud. This weekend is very nerve racking, I have a lot of Independance Day celebrating going on, and I tend to overeat at family picnics. I’m going to try and portion my food as best as I can, and continue on my exercise path. I am proud to have made 13 constant days of exercising. Thankfully we are picking up an extra Zumba class on Monday morning. I never thought I be so addicted to a dance class that’s primarily latin music, but its working, it flies by fast, and its fun.

I am also proud of myself for my food choices on Thursday. I stuck with the salad at my favorite deli, and chose a fish entre for dinner. Skipping desert and only eating half of my baked potato. I was so jealous as someone order my favorite dinner there(on my recommendation because I couldn’t stop talking about it). I kept cool even though I thought about diving head first into the creamy wine and cheese sauce that was left on her plate. 😀

Two shout outs to my puppy Freddie, for walking with me when my other buddy can’t . She has been gaining weight too, and she has weight loss goals of her own to meet (as set by her vet).

Next goal will be in 4.8 pounds. Here I come.

After continuing to be frustrated with my weight on Tuesday and Wednesday, this morning I finally had a little break through… I’m 1.4 pounds through to my 3 pound goal. I’m hoping that with all the exercise I’m putting forth that I can finally reach that first marker this weekend.

I’m just trying to look at tiny goals for now. I’ve always gotten lost in looking at the big picture. Thinking about losing over 100 pounds is very uneasy. I think if I take it 3-5 pounds at a time it will be more manageable.

I am starting to really love group dance/Zumba classes. The first time always seems so overwhelming, but I was impressed at my ability to keep up with both classes by the second week. The jumping is still killer, on my feet and knees. Hopefully my inner athelete will rear her head soon. She’s been hiding for over 15 years.

I’m a little nervous about eating today. Thursday is eat out day at work. We always order from this fantastic little Italian deli. Then tonight I have a dinner at a Italian restuarant with a group of girlfriends. At least today I can order a salad. They do make amazing gourmet salads. The restaurant is going to be a little tricky. Maybe they’ll have some kind of fish that I like. Even though I am so craving pasta.

Fortunately my friend who has similar weightloss goals, and who has become my workout buddy, is going to meet me afterwords for a long walk. Just got to keep pushing. 30 days 30 workouts. Today will be number 11. WooHoo!

I am Frustrated! Super – duper annoyed at the world frustrated. I hate the freakin’ scale. I hate working my ass off for seven straight days, and gaining one pound.

I should be proud. I should be proud that from last Monday to yesterday, I put in a solid workout everyday, even when I felt sore and tired and didn’t want to move a single muscle. Logically,  I know this is usually the week that I retain water, but I still felt that with every effort I put forth that the scaled should have moved in a positive direction and not a negative.  I have not legitimately worked this hard in a long time. And It makes me want to give up. I’m promising myself, one month of these killer workouts, and then I will see where I stand.