Getting Healthy, Feeling Better, and Weighing Less

Sad to say, but I’ve hit new heights. Unfortunately I haven’t physical grown an extra couple inches higher. Just wider. I hoping this is it. This number on the scale will propel me into finally getting it done. My son is now six. I want him to be sixty before i die. I will admit I make excuses. I find my self freezing up before thinking about even exercising again. I logically know that not taking care of my self is only going to put me in a worse situation. This has to end now. This has to be the last post of desperation I write. I’m 38 years old. I can’t keep living like this. My next post will be full of determination.

Went to a restaurant supply grocery store last Wednesday, and stocked my fridge with fruits and veggies and all healthy things this week. Trying really hard to eat everything and not let anything spoil. Proudly have eaten one apple and one orange everyday so far.As well as filling my belly with carrots and broccoli and peppers and any other veggie that I find dippable. It does help stave off the urges. Happy that weight watchers does not charge points for most of the fresh things.

Saturday night was almost a food disaster. Threw a little birthday party for a good friend. Pizza and ice cream cake and tortilla chips with nacho cheese. But I also made up a gigantic plate of sliced veggies and another healthy snack choice of grapes and nuts and low-fat mozzarella cheese. While I did have two slice of pizza, a piece of pie, and serving of the chips, I spent must of the night munching on the veggies.  I manage to only go off point on Weight Watchers by 1 point. I find that successful.

I am most proud of the journaling. I have kept account of all bites, pecks, tastes, that I let enter my mouth. 6 days. That’s a record. Usually I can get through the weeks, but the weekends I’ll forget. I made it. Here’s to six more.

House Accomplishments: Cleaned out my drawers and closets in bedroom, made FOUR bags for good will, now need to get the husband to do his half, and then maybe we can house clean it. And the en suite bath also.

Minor House Goal for this week…Getting the kitchen sink cleaned every night.

Need to start my exercise outine. I know eating alone isn’t going to get it done.

So as usual I set a gigantic goal for my self, didn’t accomplish it, became embarrased, and ran away. And while I didn’t meet my goal of 30 exercises in 30 days, I did do 27 days worth – Which was a huge accomplishment for me. However, I was hugely dissapointed in my weight loss. It was not nearly the weight that I had dreamed of, with the diet and exercise that I was putting forth.  And then I had a personal setback with another issue in my life, and everything just kind of fell apart.

So it’s been about three weeks since a seriously exercized or watched my diet. And I refuse to let myself get in the same pattern. THe good news the weight I had managed to lose has not come back. Which makes me wonder about my body….

Tonight I am getting back to Zumba, and I am excited. I just need to continue to push forth, and look for ways around road blocks.

I also decided to get back in gear with weight watchers online. Journal, Journal, Jounal.

Hopefully my next post will be sooner rather than later.

So this is me introducing myself to the world. I’m overweight, and I really want not to be anymore. It’s been a real struggle since college, and now I’m 35. So I decided to be accountable – to myself, to my family, to the world. Mostly I plan on using this as a spot to write down every meal I eat. I also plan on posting all my workout, and hopefully successes I make on the scale.

From time to time, I’m sure I’ll use the as a medium for venting not only frustrations keeping me from my goals, but other aspects of my life.

I’m also an amateur photographer, I like posting pictures. Hopefully whoever finds this Blog will enjoy them.

My first goal is three pounds. Hopefully I can reach it soon.