Getting Healthy, Feeling Better, and Weighing Less

After continuing to be frustrated with my weight on Tuesday and Wednesday, this morning I finally had a little break through… I’m 1.4 pounds through to my 3 pound goal. I’m hoping that with all the exercise I’m putting forth that I can finally reach that first marker this weekend.

I’m just trying to look at tiny goals for now. I’ve always gotten lost in looking at the big picture. Thinking about losing over 100 pounds is very uneasy. I think if I take it 3-5 pounds at a time it will be more manageable.

I am starting to really love group dance/Zumba classes. The first time always seems so overwhelming, but I was impressed at my ability to keep up with both classes by the second week. The jumping is still killer, on my feet and knees. Hopefully my inner athelete will rear her head soon. She’s been hiding for over 15 years.

I’m a little nervous about eating today. Thursday is eat out day at work. We always order from this fantastic little Italian deli. Then tonight I have a dinner at a Italian restuarant with a group of girlfriends. At least today I can order a salad. They do make amazing gourmet salads. The restaurant is going to be a little tricky. Maybe they’ll have some kind of fish that I like. Even though I am so craving pasta.

Fortunately my friend who has similar weightloss goals, and who has become my workout buddy, is going to meet me afterwords for a long walk. Just got to keep pushing. 30 days 30 workouts. Today will be number 11. WooHoo!

I am Frustrated! Super – duper annoyed at the world frustrated. I hate the freakin’ scale. I hate working my ass off for seven straight days, and gaining one pound.

I should be proud. I should be proud that from last Monday to yesterday, I put in a solid workout everyday, even when I felt sore and tired and didn’t want to move a single muscle. Logically,  I know this is usually the week that I retain water, but I still felt that with every effort I put forth that the scaled should have moved in a positive direction and not a negative.  I have not legitimately worked this hard in a long time. And It makes me want to give up. I’m promising myself, one month of these killer workouts, and then I will see where I stand.

So this is me introducing myself to the world. I’m overweight, and I really want not to be anymore. It’s been a real struggle since college, and now I’m 35. So I decided to be accountable – to myself, to my family, to the world. Mostly I plan on using this as a spot to write down every meal I eat. I also plan on posting all my workout, and hopefully successes I make on the scale.

From time to time, I’m sure I’ll use the as a medium for venting not only frustrations keeping me from my goals, but other aspects of my life.

I’m also an amateur photographer, I like posting pictures. Hopefully whoever finds this Blog will enjoy them.

My first goal is three pounds. Hopefully I can reach it soon.